Suicide Prevention Awareness

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“If you are looking for a sign not to kill yourself, this is it.” – Unknown

From September 12th- 16th, in honor of Suicide Prevention Awareness month, I will be offering “The Voiceless” for free in digital format.  “The Voiceless” deals with the subject matter of suicide and the hope one finds in the aftermath of a suicide attempt.

It is important for me that you all know my intentions in offering “The Voiceless” for free for five days.  Suicide is not a matter I take lightly and I wouldn’t dream of exploiting its seriousness.  It’s a subject matter that has touched my life in a personal manner.  So, the reason I am doing this is because as a struggling artist, the only thing I feel I can do is occasionally offer my work for free.  And in doing this with “The Voiceless”, I am not looking to boost future sales, nor am I looking for compliments about my work, nor am I looking for an increase in reviews.  But if there is even a chance that someone out there reads “The Voiceless” and is changed for the better, finds hope in the darkness that is their life, or thinks twice about taking their own life, then I am reaching my goal. I don’t need to know about it.  Just the thought of the possibility of it is rewarding enough.  If I reap any other benefits, I will be thankful just the same. Thank you for your understanding.

And remember….

YOU matter.  Your life matters. There is hope.

Resources:

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

National Suicide Prevention Hotline:  1-800-273-8255

“The Voiceless” on Amazon, free from September 12th to September 16th, 2016: The Voiceless

Excerpt from “The Watcher”

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From “The Watcher”

She is number eleven, bound and gagged like the last ten, and her peaches and cream cheeks are turning a deep shade of indigo.  I release the string and switch it out for a knife.  I press the blade and plunge it into her neck, and bask in relief as I let the blood seep onto my freezing hands.

I shove the shoestring back into the pocket of my hooded sweatshirt, and crawl in quick, jerky movements on my knees to her feet.  Her shoes are dirty, but her laces–a dazzling white.   With a panicked haste, I run to my truck and rummage in the backseat for a rag and a jug of water.  I couldn’t bear it if those beautiful laces got one drop of her blood on them.   My hand is on the jug’s handle when I feel someone’s eyes on me.  A quiet gasp shoots up into my nostrils, but I stay focused on my task.  Still, I can’t pretend to not be delighted that someone has taken an interest in my work.  Someone knows my secret and someone wants to be body number twelve.

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Thank you for reading this excerpt from “The Watcher”, from the “Compulse” short story anthology, available here. 

Excerpt from “Alienation”

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From “Alienation”

It was at first a single whisper, hot and quick, tickling my ear.   It grew into many whispers from sources unseen, their fervent voices hissing through the shadows.  I inclined my head to listen.  I knew the whispers were for my ears alone, because it was only I who had need for them.  The whisperers were joined by others innumerable, swelling into a cacophony of murmurs and shouts.  The shouts softened while the whispers engorged into a crescendo, harmonizing into a single tone, which buzzed like the pluck of a stringed instrument, sweet, crisp, and metallic.  The tone repeated, gaining volume with each passing interval, until I became aware of its purpose—to take formation inside my mind as two distinct thoughts.  They awakened every perception of self within me.  Survive.  Swim.

Without a tether, I would have no safeguard against drowning.  But the walls gave me little consternation, because though they were layered and substantial, they were also pliable, and would succumb with ease to the sickle-shaped claws curling out from my fingertips.  Yet my survival would not be guaranteed. And I must live, for without me, there would be nothing.  Mine is the only existence that has worth.

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Thank you for reading this excerpt from “Alienation”, from the “Compulse” short story anthology, available here.  Read another free excerpt from “Alienation”.